2 till I’m 30

“In the end, though, maybe we must all give up trying to pay back the people in this world who sustain our lives. In the end, maybe, it’s wiser to surrender before the miraculous scope of human generosity and just keep saying thank you, forever and sincerely, for as long as we have voices.” -Elizabeth Gilbert

I can’t believe all of the people who traveled from around the US to surprise me at Disneyland yesterday. I was shocked and overwhelmed by the outpouring of love. During my 29th year on this earth I felt alone and broken. My life and family were falling apart and I was empty. When I reached out for help, I felt like no one was there. But, yesterday, there was so much love. I was surrounded by so many friends and family who came to celebrate with us. People took vacation days, traveled hundreds and even thousands of miles, and planned Disneyland vacations to be with us. It’s still taking me time to process all of the support, love, and joy I received yesterday. It was a reminder that I have so many amazing friends who support me, even if I don’t get to see them on a regular basis. And, I now get to join a family who loves and accepts me for who I am. My cup truly runeth over and I no longer feel alone. 
I will be saying thank you, forever and sincerely, for as long as I have a voice.  

3 till I’m 30

“When you meet that person. a person. One of your soulmates. Let the connection. Relationship. Be what it is. It may be five minutes. Five hours. Five days. Five months. Five years. A lifetime. Five lifetimes. Let it manifest itself the way it is meant to. It has an organic destiny. This way if it stays or if it leaves. You will be softer. From having been loved this authentically. Souls come into. Return. Open. And sweep through your life for a myriad of reasons. Let them be who. And what they are meant.” -nayyirah waheed

Time with friends is precious these days as they live all over the country. But, I cherish these moments we have together when they sweep through my life. They float in, bring me sunshine, celebrate my existence, and then float out to continue on their own unique journeys… and I love them for it. We are awesome, we are passionate, and we are leading productive and exciting lives. But, sometimes, we carve out the time for hugs, conversation, trips to the happiest place on earth, and share big moments in our lives…. like proposals to marry your bestest friend and soulmate. (Eek) I am so grateful to have these beautiful souls in my life. Thank you to my bestie Katelyn Holliday and her love Bruce Brown for being a part of Brighton and my special moment. I love you guys and I hope that we get to share lots of moments together until we’re all old, grey, wrinkly, and happily ever after. 

23 till I’m 30

I was blessed to visit with Heather, one of my best friends, yesterday. She and I have been connected at the hip since elementary school and we’ve seen eachother through bad times, worse times, and (of course) Disneyland times. I’m always so happy when I get my Heather time. As I get older, I am more and more grateful for those true friendships that carry you through decades of your life–those who have seen you through your chubby days, through your nerdy choral days, through your bad hair days, through your “awkward freshman in college” days, through bad decisions and major changes. The ones who stick by you when you are at your worst and celebrate you when you are at your best, those are the friends to keep around until you grow old and wrinkly… and even after. 😉

Heather and I will always share our own special sparkle motion…. even if we no longer have such fabulously sequined show choir dresses. 
In college it was easy to decide on a whim that you wanted to visit someone, go to a movie, or grab a bite to eat. All of your friends lived just a few blocks away. Unfortunately, now that we’ve all dispersed, my friends live in Texas, New York, Los Angeles, San Francisco, Pennsylvania, Illinois, Oregon, and the like. I used to hate the fact that all of my friends live so far away from me, but I now consider it a blessing. Frankly, with all of my friends pursuing so many amazing dreams, careers, and life goals, even if we lived on the same block, we’d hardly ever see eachother. We’re all so busy making the world a better place. Now, I get to travel to cool places to visit people while truly treasuring the time we share together. We no longer take the precious hours we spend together for granted. And, the beauty is, I know that whenever we do make time to visit one enother it will be as if not a single day has gone by. We stay connected even if we go years without seeing one another in person. That is the sign of true friendship. I am so grateful to my friends near and far who keep me in their thoughts and in their hearts. We may be growing older, but we’re not growing further apart.